tuesday dec 23, 2025 and saturday dec 27, 2025

had long drives both these days and both drives i barely slept the night before. we left late in the day and then shortly after departing i felt my eyes getting heavy and my mind disappearing. sometimes my eyes wouldn't close but i'd still snap to seconds later and realize i had drifted a little bit. it felt like there was nothing i could do about it, no matter how hard i tried to stay alert it kept happening over and over again. sometimes my eyes would close for a blink and i'd snap to again realizing i had fallen asleep. i kept thinking how nice it would be to just close my eyes and sleep for a little while and had to keep reminding myself that i was driving and couldn't do that. both drives when i finally accepted what a problem this was, we stopped to get me some shitty coffee. i took a sleeping pill to sleep once we arrived. my first experience with micro-sleeping. i hope to never experience it again.